Generous Account

I waited too long to go through my bills from last year. I’m a little behind on my record keeping this year, although historically, I don’t spend much money in January or February. That has been the case this year too although I think I have spent a little more than I typically do. Money has always been a non-issue until after I’ve spent it.

When I go through my all of my receipts from the last year, I can’t help but feel slightly depressed. I have picked up so many receipts from nights out where I picked up the tab for my friends. Not because they asked me to - I offered and insisted to pay. My friends haven’t been as fortunate as I have been and even though my shitty job last year paid me peanuts, I thought that sharing my fortunes would cheer them up.

Well, it certainly did because ten dollars here and twenty dollars there really makes a difference when you are trying to pay for life. Now, one year later, I look back and I can’t help but feel like I am throwing away my money. When your ultimate goal is to save enough money to buy a house, it’s difficult to justify all of the unnecessary coverage. And while it sucks - it was in the name of a good cause and in the end, it adds up to almost nothing in the grand scheme of things.

So this year, while I am always happy to put a smile on my friends faces, I won’t go out of my way for them unless they ask me to. Perhaps it is being selfish and you know what, it is, but this is the year I start to take better care of myself and really make a difference where it counts.

After all, don’t I deserve to take care of myself?

3 months ago  /  2 notes